Why is it so confusing!!!???

When I lost him......... I felt so lonely. I cried. When I saw him with another girl I was sad........ I cried. I screamed. Very loud. Made my friend crying too. When I started forgetting him. It was almost successed. Then he came again to me, and told me that he loves me. I was with him again. Then...suddenly I felt that he just using me. So I asked him to go away. I had promised to myself that I wouldn't care about him anymore and forgetting him. So I could. I have said to my friends that my feeling has been free and I already like another boy and singing Fugu's song "here today". But he... He still calling me. Sms-ing me. And telling me that he still loves me. Hey boy, you already have a girl!! WTF?! ..........then I doubt my own feeling. I can't lie to my own feeling. Do I still love him? 'Cause I never wanna see his fb or his story anymore. I'm afraid. Afraid to cry again. Why when I have sure that I'm free the doubt feeling comes?! WHY LOVE IS SO CONFUSING. Oh bloody hell!

I love and need her but sometime I hate her

Who? My mom. On my job, I wrote she's the one who inspires me. But............... ergh I don't like her behave sometime........

She said "Don't waste money, it's better used for your school fee.." But she used the money for jewelry, shoes, dress,etc. But me? She told that I've to get in style don't just use jeans but herself never allows me to buy at girls shop..and she always wastes money for unimportant thing. She already has so much common things but she always buys the new one. And me? My shirt/t-shirt only a few but she never lets me buy any...

aaaaaaaaaargh!

And today.. I was taking a bath and already had a plan with my father going to watch movie. But when I opened the bathroom door... there are guests. So I came back to the bathroom. Then father told me to out because they wanna take wudhu I said I'm just using towel. He told me to use the clothes that I used before took a bath but it was already wet. My maid brought me the new one but I didn't wanna wear it in bathroom, why? It was very hot. My mom started yelling and telling my bad and acting like she was the poor one. What the fuck? Sucks! Ergh I hate that.

Why you are so easy to angry? Why don't you follow your siblings? I hate you...

Farewell Party Picts of Me

These are fppom wkwkwk. Iseeeeeng.....gue ga ada baju cewe sooooooooo? Jadi cowo juga jadi -_-

Bonita, my girl :D
















Casey, my another girl

With my girls

That's all haha goodnight ppl! (bye)

Foto-foto di Dufan

Selain foto badut mesum itu.......ada yang lain. Diambil pake kamera ka Efata. (iseng aja naro sini)

Great Last Days!

Beep beep! (means hello)

Yeah, I was having great last days! First, Dufan... It was very great. Then, grade 9 graduation. Even I was only singing there, but I saw their faces were soooo happy that they have graduated from junior high school. I saw --- too!

Hemmmm... oh yeah, my mom back home. She had a big operation. Get well soon, Mom.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaand the greatest is........... grade 9 farewell! Luckily, I was invited as the name of OSIS. But I dressed like a boy. It's nice enough to have some couples with the girls haha. Eventhough, I could see --- and the performances. They were inviting DJ and we(the audience) dancing in front of the stage. Soooooooooooooo nice. Oh yeah, he looked handsome HAHAHA. When the reggae band ( I forget the name) and Cookies Affair band performing, we also dancing in front of the stage crazily.

At last, at half past eleven, the party was over. Yeah we had to go home. But, at last --- talked to me with --- big smile. (no, I'm not forgetting Kebo. But I have to. So can't I talk about another boy?) And I think last night was the real farewell for 'us'. Good bye, dude. See you next time.